Assalamualaikum and Hello my readers! It have been quite some time since i created a post here. The last was in 2018!! (but i do have some post in the draft hehehe). I am soo soo soo!!! sorry for neglecting my blog needs. I cant believe i abandon my unborn child for two years. Well as you can guess, if i started to write there must be something going on right but what was it?!! as i am writing this, it is currently 8:43 A.M. Anyways do people still read blog?? but i am writing for the future me anyway!

Lets start with a tidbits 2020. 2020 have been amazingly dull for me, combined with the pandemic there you go a great combination for a depression hahahaha. or should i start by telling what happen to me in 2019 first?? but i think mehh, that will be story for another time. 2020 have been a life changed for me. It have been a year where i believe i at my lowest. it was nothing compared to other life event. it is the year where i has been smacked down and i dont have a place to fall back. I mean for me, not having a backup plan in case something goes wrong is a major disaster for me. 

For the first half of 2020, i was currently just starting out my internship and i was in major heartbreak. i wish i can call it the heartbreak of decade, but i refuse to let it be that "memorable". He certainly is not sufficient enough to earn that title but again when was the last time i got my heart break from a malay guy and not a fictional character. Along with my heartbreak disease i also suffered from stress due to overworking in my internship that i started to develop a trauma (is what i called) towards a whatsapp but my work keep my thoughts accompanied and for that i am thankful <3.

I also have successfully completed my studio with a reasonable grade and i thought i was free?!! but no i am currently still facing my final year project. which at first i thought like i need to do something amazing! i want it to be the work that i would be proud to show it off! like if i were to meet some people i will go like PLEASE LOOK AT MY THESIS I MADE THIS WITH MY BLOOD, SNOT AND TEAR! but boy, my thesis became a nightmare instead lol. okay that will be the end of 2020 tidbits.

Lets talk about 2021, i am currently in my final semester. You can say i am inch away from graduating as a bachelor of urban and regional planning student. Ironic isn't that i updated when i first started off as a degree student and then my next update is when i am about to graduate. hehehe. As i grow older, i stop finding joy in writing a long paragraph. Assignment is enough! hahahaha. But i love reading what i have wrote in the past years. It is indescribable feeling, it almost feel like watching myself grow. I am not a picture person as you can guess, there is a few almost to none my face i put here. 

Blogging have always been my safe home, a place where i write to let out my feeling. I like writing joyous thing and posting it here (i also write sad stuff but i never post huhuhu). As i read back what i have wrote it really scream cringe and teenagers. Hahahahaha. To make a point this is my first post where i am talking about me in my twenties. Don't be shock that this year i have successfully grow becoming 24 years old. Im not longer a teen isn't. I am a young adult right now :( 

Lets talk about what i feel momentarily, we are currently few days away from Aidil Fitri celebration. I am currently still struggling creating a synthesis map. I have no idea what i want to do. I have no idea how to proceed. I am so occupied with my works that i stop enjoying my self. This year also mark a one year of my misery. okay that will be tell in a different post. i need to get the melancholy feeling first and foremost hehehehe. 


i think this post is suffice for updating my wellbeing. bye and also i owe myself 2 post but i will turn it into 1! and i also just realize my last post also i did before syawal. of afiqah and her consistency is remarkable